im panting like oh-so-heavily
i cant breath.
nose somehow got blocked just like dat.

i know they care.
i know they love.
but dont take it utl this extent.

whats lacking?
trust?
i think thts the main thing.
but i do admit.
sumtymes i do get so caught up doing sumthing.
i might not even hear the phone ringing.
i might not reply.
and i do sometyme keep my phone at silent mode.
is dat wrong?
and whys the need to contact when u noe im under safe hands.?
if you trust me?

i noe.
checking, making sure, is a sign of concern.
but do u mind?
i cnt be with my hp like,24/7 ryte?

i figured it out.
theres just not enuff trust.
where in the world did all the trust go?
down the drain?
wheres your trust in me?
seriously.
i wonder.
its not like im asking permission to go JB or smt?
its just here!
in sgpore!
for a night only!

watever cud happen to me?!
its singapore okay!
let me reinforce that!
if we are like living in JB or smt,
fine.
i understnd.
but dont run from the fact that this is singapore?
a safe country?
a safe place to live in...?
thats the answer.
theres just no more TRUST,
in this home.
this community.
this place.
THIS WORLD.



i feel.


miserable.



drenched.




tired.(of panting out of anger)





irritated.




and 101 more words to explain...
i feel like.
1.screaming out loud
2.hit my head against the wall until i bleed.
3.knock myself unconcious.
...
lastly,

GET AWAY FROM ALL THIS !


gdbye cruel ppl.
gdbye moon.
gdbye stars.
gdbye sun.
gdbye universe.
and gdbye to anyliving thing available on it.

its a cruel,cruel,cruel,
WORLD.


nvr world peace.
bcoz the world is so cruel.